Please help me welcome Margay Leah Justice, author of Sloane Wolf, to my blog today. She’s going to share with us a letter the hero writes to the heroine.
Iâ€™m not sure how I should start this. Iâ€™m not one for spilling my feelings, even on paper, so I donâ€™t even know if I started it right. Should I have said â€˜Dear Shilohâ€™ instead of just â€˜Shilohâ€™ or is that okay? Does it make it sound like just a note? Is it too informal? I donâ€™t know, I donâ€™t usually do this â€“ any of this. Iâ€™m not the heart and posies kind of guy, I donâ€™t make the outlandish gestures to tell my woman how I feel, so this is really awkward for me. So I guess youâ€™re kind of wondering why Iâ€™m even doing this, then, huh? Well, Raven told me to. Now before you get all huffy about why Iâ€™d let my sister talk me into something like this, just listen â€“ or read, in this case. Raven knows me â€“ sometimes too well â€“ and she knows how I have a hard time expressing things (I know youâ€™re laughing right now, so donâ€™t), so she thought this might help. If I could just write it down, I could figure out the best way to tell you how I feel. So this is it, this is how I feel. About you.
Before I met you, I was just going through the motions of life, but never really living. But I didnâ€™t know that until I met you. When you first came riding into my life in that flashy Hummer, itâ€™s like it kick-started something inside me â€“ something I didnâ€™t even know was lying dormant â€“ and I really began to live. I became aware of you in a way I was never aware of any other person and I didnâ€™t know how to deal with that, especially when all that stuff went down with Haines and Ava. But then, when I thought I lost you, none of it mattered. That night in the woods, trying to find you â€“ it was the worst time of my life and I never want to go through anything like that again.
You are the first breath I take every morning, the lifeblood I need to survive. You are every beat of my heart. Without you, my life would cease to have meaning and Iâ€™d be back to just going through the motions like I did before I met you. It was a lonely existence then â€“ itâ€™d be a hellish one now. I know we havenâ€™t known each other very long and it seems impossible that I could feel this strong about you so soon, but there it is. Without you, there is no me so, please, say youâ€™ll stay with me. Say youâ€™ll take a chance and stick around and see where this might take us. I wonâ€™t force you but know this, if you decide this is all too much for you â€“ if you decide to go â€“ youâ€™ll be taking the better parts of me with you. No matter where you are or what you do, I will always love you.
Sloane Wolf is available now on Amazon.